Sharing my fears

[SomethingBetter]

At one point I had painted a backdrop of my situation on the board. But as many of you know, with all the drama and hidden readers I had removed or heavily edited most of my posts.

I want to thank Healer for this private board as I REALLY feel the need to be open right now, as I cannot stand my overwhelming emotions at the moment.

I am terrified of taking this new job. It takes me 100% out if my ex's orbit. I knew from the get go this would be a long, difficult journey. Every reader, on their own, has mentioned this relationship in terms of years down the road. Mystikka, Kisha, Michelle Caporale, Cookie....and a few others.

I am very picky about who I call, I just don't go silly calling everyone who will answer. I take my time and reflect on the reader. I do feel I have found good ones.

I am just sad, terrified and losing hope.

For some odd reason I cannot seem to let go of the promises made that "one day" we will get it right. "One day" we will be married. "One day" we can have a family. Promises made by a man whose word doesn't have much value.

He has had several flings since me. I know for a fact they are flings. I know for a fact he still carrries me in his heart and mind. I also know for a fact he has no intention of moving his ass in my direction anytime soon.

So while there is love there, it means nothing if there is no action behind it.

I know many of us are going through our own relationship issues, or life issues in general, and we all need to vent every now and again.  And while sharing predictions is great, it usually is a fleeting feeling.

I hope everyone here knows I value their insights and I wish you all happiness and everything your hearts desire.

I need to let my heavy heart out for a bit. I want everyone else to know I will gladly be a shoulder if you need it .

Be good today! Smile!

[positivethoughts2]

SomethingBetter

I wish you luck and peace with your job situation. We all have to follow our gut. Trust your intuition.

xo

[aef2929 P]

((Hugs)) SomethingBetter

The only thing we are ever dealing with is a Thought, and a Thought can be changed.  ~~ Louise Hay

Change the thought and those feelings will go away.  Easier said than done for sure!  But it does work!  If you can stop for a moment and catch that thought, ask yourself when you're thinking it... is it true?

Stay in the present it's the best and most positive place to be.  Trust and know that only the best is coming for you

Of course I write all of this while I am trying to learn this myself lol...we will all get there! xoxoxox

[Nottakingthebait]

Jordie,
I know that it is frustrating at times because things seems to simply stagnate, you just have to keep pushing on and push the predictions out of your thought process.  Dont let this get you down! 
Sending lots of positive engergy your way!!

I have to agree with the forum being blah! LOL   I tried to read through all the post and found myslef not into it, I came here and then signed off.  I signed into to chat one day looking for all my peeps, and Jesstina kept coming in and out, not saying a word.  There was some "familiar" chat going on last week, it was a repeat of the chat where two members would only talk about sex...miracle and I thought wow! havent we seen this before? LOL

Throwing this here as a bit of a vent. Getting frustrated, and I don't want to say I am losing hope because I think a part of me will always hope.  However, I am just starting to feel like I will never see his relationship end. I guess I am just stressed right now with school starting, was sick for a bit, and trying to get that kid to Spain for school!  Also, reading all the newer posts on the general board has been a bit blah lately. I can't say that I am necessarily feeling sad. I am just tired of hoping and missing what is not there. Good news is I have no desire to have any readings. Just feel like nothing new can be said to me right now. I got an email from psychicaccess, a general we miss you come back thing. Umm, not coming back!!  I also noticed when bored one day that jesstina recently logged onto the forum. This user is either raven or Avalon. That kind of annoyed me also because I lost trust in any of their readings after her posts.
Ok, enough venting. Have to get to work!

[SomethingBetter]

You are all so sweet!! (hugs)

Jordie, I know the feeling. I had another reading with Cookie yesterday and although she blew me away again, idk if I should put much stock in her future predictions vs her remote viewing. I am all out if hope mostly, and Cookie picks up on that, lol but I need more. Maybe I am asking for blood from a stone. I am going to work on forgiving, believing and relaxing as Cookie suggested.

And I agree on the board! I don't want to be snobby. But I feel nothing of interest or stimulating has been added lately. You guys KNOW how I feel about CP, and I  open to all new opinions, but nothing of substance has come up lately.

Good day all!

[Miracle]

I have to agree with the forum being blah! LOL   I tried to read through all the post and found myslef not into it, I came here and then signed off.  I signed into to chat one day looking for all my peeps, and Jesstina kept coming in and out, not saying a word.  There was some "familiar" chat going on last week, it was a repeat of the chat where two members would only talk about sex...miracle and I thought wow! havent we seen this

You bet the posts on the forum are so uninpsiring!  And YES, I remember those 2 members who were on chat recently, they just wouldn't stop talking nasty... definitely a deja vu!!!

[SomethingBetter]

Haha my sentiments exactly!

[Nottakingthebait]

Jordie,

LMAO !  It is killing me that every new member here a CP fan...what gives!

Yawn.  More cp posts.

[SomethingBetter]

I read on CP for one month about 4 years ago. Between all the blatant lies and voodoo like stuff that was offered to me, I ran and never went back. Was I lied to on Keen too? Yes. But I feel overall Keen has a better class of readers. No one on CP on a good day, could touch Cookie or Kisha.

[Luckystar]

Voodoo like stuff? wow i am glad i never experienced that on CP....anyhow, there is only one reader i still like to read with on that site which is why i haven't closed my account on there (i would have a long time ago).

I wonder what Kisha and Cookie think about CP........

[SomethingBetter]

LS,YES!! I had people offering me spells and crystals to get rid of black clouds and demons. And it wasn't just one reader,  I was hinging back then and about half offered me that stuff. I knew it was a scam and creepy so I closed the account.