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Offline lp1111

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Re: Mental wellness
« Reply #15 on: June 26, 2019, 01:58:10 AM »
I’m so sorry you feel this way. I’m finally starting to come out of this same exact state, and I had to do so through a brief use of depression medications. I do not enjoy being on medication like that long term, but sometimes it is necessary to help aid in pulling you out of that state if you aren’t able to on your own. Something else that helped so much for me was a week long vacation to the mountains. Hiking and nature just always brings me such peace. Try to find something like this that will bring you more joy and help heal your soul. Thinking of you and hope you can start to feel better ASAP!

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Re: Mental wellness
« Reply #16 on: June 26, 2019, 01:58:26 AM »
Idk if I should type this or not, but I feel dead inside. I have felt this way before, so it’s nothing new to me.

The lights are on, but nobody’s home.

I go to work and function. I listen, I laugh, I may even tell a joke. But it’s all a facade.

It’s not so much about this man that I swore was/is dead to me (I may perform a mock funeral/eulogy for him later, I’ll let you guys know how that goes) or about the readings, even though the readings are on my mind. I just feel empty and lost. Nothing makes me happy right now. Not my family, friends, animals, job...nothing. I feel a void and the readings and the random thoughts about this man and everything else are just symptomatic of the larger problem.

Nothing makes me happy right now and nothing is enough. My anxiety is dialed up to 15, I am eating like a horse and gaining weight (ironically as Cookie said) yet as a way to feel something I’ve developed this nasty habit of purging my food. It’s gross and I feel awful after, but I also feel a sense of control.

And that’s what this is ultimately about, I need and crave control. For a while I was doing wonderfully just living my life and letting things happen. Now I live in fear of every little thing that will or won’t happen. And to deal with that I shut down. I am in such a dissociative state. I managed to squeak out a few tears in the shower moments ago but it was nowhere near the amount that I need to emote.

My anxiety meds only further put me in a place to where nothing matters.

I want to use this board for its intended purpose, to review psychics, which I do believe in. It’s this hidden indulgence I’ve allowed myself, talking to these psychics and talking to all of you. But where do I get to that point where I can start to feel again?

Does anyone else have the same feeling? Like they are just floating through right now?

Please don’t quote me as I may delete this.

Interestingly enough, Cookie predicted these anxiety:depression issues and Yona saw me struggling while healing lol. Sorry, I had to tie the readings in some how.
Can I offer meditation? I know how meds can make one feel, and honestly, those just make me feel even worse. Almost like I'm floating through life, without actually "being there". And it's horrible.
As you can tell from my fit the other day, I've got a great deal of anxiety, myself. It might not help me in the sense that it makes things better, but I've noticed that when I'm watching something funny, a comedy, a show, or spending time with my dogs, I feel a lot better in the sense that, while I'm still worrying about things, and still have that anxiety, it's still there, but becomes less pronounced. through the distraction. Best wishes <3 <3 <3

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Re: Mental wellness
« Reply #17 on: June 26, 2019, 02:09:21 AM »
Natasha (that’s one of my favorite names ever btw) I do see both a psychiatrist and a therapist. I do take antidepressants and the most recent one has been the best so far. I just started a new job last month however so I’m trying to meet deductibles, find the money and the time, etc. I am also on a different type of birth control to try and correct something, I got it the last week of April, so I’m wondering if that is contributing to my worsening mental state.

LPoche, I think I might go on a hike this weekend. I think being out in nature helps.

Josh, meditations are a great idea.

Thank you all.

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Re: Mental wellness
« Reply #18 on: June 26, 2019, 02:15:41 AM »
Natasha (that’s one of my favorite names ever btw) I do see both a psychiatrist and a therapist. I do take antidepressants and the most recent one has been the best so far. I just started a new job last month however so I’m trying to meet deductibles, find the money and the time, etc. I am also on a different type of birth control to try and correct something, I got it the last week of April, so I’m wondering if that is contributing to my worsening mental state.

LPoche, I think I might go on a hike this weekend. I think being out in nature helps.

Josh, meditations are a great idea.

Thank you all.

Oh I agree with LPoche! I was struggling today, after reading an article about a death. It just made me feel in a muck all day, just really bad and in a 'void'. ----and what really helped was going outside and relaxing with nature, playing some music, and just looking around, 'feeling the energy' around me from the wild life. Very good suggestion, LPoche!

Offline Jeninmd2

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Re: Mental wellness
« Reply #19 on: June 26, 2019, 02:26:30 AM »
Having had my share of depression and anxiety, I can relate to this...for me, it’s usually a low level sadness and apathy, even just wanting to magically fade away off the planet somehow. Ironically, the one time I felt EXACTLY as you described was when I took a short course of an antidepressant - I was so emotionally numb and dead inside while taking it that it was scary - as you mentioned, these types of drugs can have profound effects.

I don’t know you, SB, but I am genuinely concerned about you, especially if you are on the verge of an eating disorder (which I totally get the need for control - that coupled with a fear of the unknown is why I consult psychics). I don’t want to overstep my bounds at all, but I’m going to PM you if that’s ok...

Please take care of yourself ❤️

Oh, and I totally want to be invited to that mock funeral for your ex lol  😎


Offline lp1111

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Re: Mental wellness
« Reply #20 on: June 26, 2019, 02:31:05 AM »
Yes! That’s always my natural high! I pray this helps even a tiny bit 🖤

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Re: Mental wellness
« Reply #21 on: June 27, 2019, 06:01:02 PM »
Wow Have to say some great reading here, So i can relate to many on here.
54 years before I found my soul mate
many years of loneliness
Many years of depression
Many girlfriends
Many times I wanted to {end it} I think you know what this means!
Most of my life ive hated every day of it, Its been hell even school days it was torture, But i am so glad i stuck with what was dealt me, MISERY'  My mother made me strong, and now im living the best life although later than i wanted but the best ever, Ive never been so happy and know that all good things are worth the wait, I feel like a teenager Because living life makes you stronger and wiser, You never forget the bad stuff, But the good always shines through despite how many years it takes.

 

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