Getting closer to 2 whole weeks without readings

[Mina]

I’m excited to say I very close to having 2 whole weeks free from psychic reads! Whoot whoot! (And yes I’m doing via catholic lent self shaming style😆… and yes I understand that’s not a lot really 😳)

I want to say more but then it gets bloggy

Ok I lied, I can’t help it I do want to share this insight that I got from HHP workshop. To stop outsourcing my inner trust or inner confidence; I do think depending on readings does rob, or has robbed me of that. I also believe in a higher power, God. I think it’s a tricky discernment of tug and war: trust yourself, no trust in God, no trust your gut, no trust the universe, don’t let your desires lead, but God gave you desires so you should be happy, can’t take your desires when you die, everything happens for a reason, ugh who cares it’s is meaningless, to feeling broken, ugh to what can I can trust?, what will last… i agree it’s existentially overwhelming

I do think Im aware what brought me to this (psychics) feeling like an addiction; that I couldn’t trust myself to date this guy or the next. That it wasn’t safe to love that guy, or trust this person, or that I’d be happy to move forward. I have learned first hand self regulating with psychics is such misery… especially as people pleasing perfectionist. But I am finding I have made mistakes and I survived! And it’s ok. I gone thru some friend fighting, saying the wrong thing, roomate navigating, questioning does my boss like me?, what will I do for work?, will things be ok?, can one really affirm for safety?… and so far it really truly is ok … but it definitely was not overnight miracle, that just magically happened. I constantly post about going psychic free and still feel like I fail, but I am still excited for this challenge. It is work to be happy within, but I’m feeling excited about my life.

I have a road trip coming up to celebrate my end of season of work. I’m meal prepping my healthy snacks on the road, spas I’m going to visit, spending money for new clothes… and it’s so good to know that I have saved more this season from last year. And worrying about a psychic read is just not the table: whom to get reading from, was so and so right, when can I schedule with so and so, how can I pay for it, etc. Most of the reads feel like bust anyways and not at all what I had hoped, best accept that disappointment as quickly as possible.

I do feel excited about life, I keep saying that… but I do and there’s really not much of a specific reason, or person, or job as to why… just that I do

[Notacrystalfreak]

Have you ever thought of starting a “quitting psychic addiction” blog?

[Mina]

I guess that’s not a bad idea

I don’t like the hate that comes with ppl who believe this isn’t the forum for it… but I do believe it is insidious part and it has been growing.

Ugh I’m struggling - I’m IN week 2.
Currently, I’m at a spa hotel and just spent money on fitness things… and feeling uncomfortable. But progress! And better than last year when I tried this, and I admit I did break a few times. I  still do feel determined. But I guess the icke feelings are hitting. The “how uncomfortable can I be without knowing” … but here’s the thing with psychic predictions… there’s still always an UNknowing anyways.

But I’m bummed a psychic prediction didn’t come thru about “SP” (sadly Sincerity… maybe it could but not now) … but it’s one of many.

I’m also quitting drinking (and smoking weed)… and that’s pffft easy! I can do that with my eyes closed! Well… no… there’s been end of the season work parties, and other social events. Before I go out I’m constantly “choosing” to be sober and “choosing” to be in a good mood. I do have to concentrate when I go to events. “Ok I’m choosing to be sober and can still have a good time and relax.” The pay off is I didn’t hook up with anyone I’ll regret, or flirt with someone because of low self esteem, I get to see how and who my friends really are (so far they’re great… but I do get headaches when tired, and they still want to go go go). However… damn, I gave up drinking and I still have heartburn at night, I still feel heavy and swollen in the morning, I still wake up sore and I don’t remember exercising… usually withdrawal (physical withdrawal) do last 2-3 weeks. Ugh… and I may have to face there is no payout because I am getting older.

With sans psychics the payouts are… can spend a little free and not worry how I’m gonna pay for outings. Such as if I have to sacrifice eating out, or better hotel stays … versus sleeping in my car between road trips. Another is my credit card bill is getting lower. I did pay out one store credit last month! Now to tackle the next one. But… things “for the better” still don’t happen, disappointments still exist, ppl still disappoint you… I wish it was in stone as a guarantee
In 24-48 hrs one’s aura will get clearer
In 2-3 days one’s liver will start detoxifying all the BS gunk psychics have said
In 2-3 weeks my anxiety skin will get clearer and brighter with discernment
In 1 month things really do play out now that one has let them
In 2-3 months one realizes they didn’t want that any ways … and there is new SP

Meh. 🫤

I wish I had quantifiable, measurable, solid, hard evidence that in quitting this one’s life does gets better… but so far the biggest difference from last year to this one is my anxiety is less. It still hurts, like the uncertainty hurts, but it’s not as bad.

[Notacrystalfreak]

Whose SP?

[Mina]

Whose SP?

Specific Person

[Notacrystalfreak]

I like reading your posts. If you want to blog here write away. I think a lot of us like to visit this forum and see what’s going on.

[Mina]

Made it to week 3!

More like currently working on week 3
I gave into a midline boundary that I did break (midline boundary: borderline from the possibility to engage in an addictive behavior. I am engaging in smoking weed- even though I had more than 90 days of sobriety with this. But staying strong in no drinking even though I am bartending at one of my side gigs)

My trigger came Sunday night. I lost my recently expensive purchased lumen and yup my mind went to well who’s a good remote viewer? But briefly… I thought of one and remembered well she is a little cray… the ends really don’t justify the means compared to staying sober. But that doesn’t mean I wasn’t angry upset, hurt, and frustrated. These feelings are manageable. The money lost IS manageable.

I did find it though, that lumen (a lumen is an expensive weight loss tool), so I didn’t lose money.

Ugh, but I did go through this whole process of grief: begging, desperation, depression, anger, denial, etc

Before I found it, I prayed. Listened to father Mike Schmitz and his talk about “the view from mountain top”. Almost like the means to the end. And Father Mike Schmitz clearly states life is not that way; it isn’t pretty clean cut package and there isn’t a nicely wrapped ending where everyone gets what they want and solved.

Overall that was my biggest trigger this week. Losing something and wanting both reassurance I would find it, and knowing it was able to be found! How to direct faith id be ok.

I also questioned my whole instincts. My gut/feeling/instinct said “I’d find it, and by morning I’d be using it.” But that evening my feelings felt uneasy. Then I started to question my intuition with other things I felt uneasy or thought I needed a psychic reading: SP, career, …my tire warranty, honestly anything and random. I didn’t question other things but that is the human fallacy: use past experiences and give them same value on how I handled based on my “instincts”. At the same time there is a time and place to listen to one’s instinct and just let it be, not obsess about it.

Regardless working on week 3
Enjoying the benefits of using my money for much needed self care such as updated eye prescription, new tires… and eating out

[Mina]

So I’ve been rewriting this over and over

But yes I touched 4 weeks! 4 weeks of no psychic reads! Also 4 weeks of no alcohol! …As for weed I did give into that.

But I am so proud, excited and I feel accomplished. I’m holding a boundary to myself and that feels so good! To do right by you!

But … now yes… I do think of giving in now. I am preemptively thinking who can read with once lent ends. I also feel my finances are getting exponentially better because I haven’t called. Like that seems to be the subconscious fear behind that thought. And like my weed encounter I can’t just do it once. Ugh AND it takes me so much energy to quit… it takes so much energy to quit anything!

Anyways… I am also happy to say I just got back from the dentist. Had a long overdue dental cleaning and I love this… I am relearning to invest in me, or take care of my health… and again it’s hard. Because when I look at how much it cost… it gets scary again.

Anywho just wanted to update. Made it to 4 weeks!

[Mina]

My last reading was March 3, 2025 … is today really 5 weeks?! I’m shocked I’ve gone this long… it feels like 3 weeks. Like I’m still trying to put the words for week 3. I get so excited counting the weeks I’ve “sustained”.

But don’t get me wrong, last night I was looking at who could I call or who was around? Then I was left to go over my notes and listened to a recorded reading I had… which made me really sad. My “in place measures” were there; I have some protective measures in place. Like the utmost minimal amount in my bank account to prevent me from getting a reading. A list of bills I want to pay this week and goals. And for me to put shoes and a bra on just so I can deposit money in the bank and not get an overdraft fee - That’s too much man. I’m glad I found it all exhausting. Because now I was crying at this prediction that may or may not happen.

Sometimes when I read some posts I can read some y’all’s thinking patterns and want to say “trust in yourself” “believe in yourself to be strong enough” that whatever outcome or this you will get thru it. Then live your life. Because what you spend most time doing that what you have to show for…
I’ve been trying to work out and showing consistently is hard. But 3 weeks will pass… the 5 weeks … 6 weeks all of will pass, how will I show my time for it?

[Mina]

So good! Six weeks today! Without an official psychic readings!

I love these Mondays! I do genuinely feel happier and less anxious. I do get sad about why I called, but I also trust everything in my life does get resolved is justified. I do have so many blessings. My biggest breakthrough this week was there family upset and it is still ongoing but I trust I will get thru it. I also do way less manifesting techniques or watch videos or care to.i feel this has gotten way simpler for me. even though there is lots of uncertainty (my job, upcoming moves, parents health, friendships) I just have so much trust in my life. I feel so refreshed … like my time is my own again

[Mina]

I have been wanting to give an update on this challenge. … and ive written several posts but it just doesn’t feel “done” so …now I asked ChatGPT to make my rants shorter, highlight bullet points, and get to the point:

- **Growth and Reflection**: Completed a 40-day break from psychic readings, experiencing personal growth and reduced reliance on them.
- **New Coping Mechanisms**: Engaged in questioning feelings during uncertainty and avoiding usual triggers, thus improving emotional regulation.
- **Alcohol and Sobriety**: Successfully quit drinking alcohol, discovering the ability to have fun and enjoy social events without it. (I also went 40 days without alcohol)
- **Handling Anxiety**: Reduced need to ask anxiety-driven questions regarding personal relationships, becoming comfortable with uncertainty.
- **Financial Awareness**: Saved money by refraining from unnecessary readings, choosing to pay bills instead.
- **Emotional Intelligence**: Recognized the power to safely experience and process emotions like anger without external validation.
- **Simplified Rituals**: Streamlined spiritual practices to focus more on simple prayers and less on manifesting, avoiding burnout.
- **Support Systems**: Benefited from communities and resources like Thais Gibson’s attachment theory program and the Hallow app for emotional and spiritual support.
- **Therapeutic Insights**: Gained understanding and coping skills from therapy after experiencing workplace trauma, contributing to overall resilience.

Thanks ChatGPT

I also have these some videos that really inspired me. I can’t talk about this predilection without mentioning that perhaps at the core of a disease was how I put myself in a limerence situation, and acknowledging my attachment style. (And I’m not saying this so the answer for everybody but it’s definitely worth looking into) I grew up getting swept away in my emotions thinking it’s the end all be all, for some time I’ve wondered if I was borderline (and have had some medical expert both agree and disagree with that diagnosis- but it doesn’t matter). But, you know what emotions aren’t bad. They’re perceptions of your world view, and at times reflect or challenge a core belief. Feelings aren’t bad either; not good, nor bad, they’re definitely a flavor, or a vibe, but they’re ok to have, and at times need to be let out to get a neutral place. It’s the human experience.

Therapy in a nutshell:
https://youtu.be/X1RETMlk8rc?si=HvNjd_Bj0J88AYOg

Healing prolong grief (limerence, staying present):
https://youtu.be/uPkWHdamMfo?si=dHCba6c7BwmfL1eg

Thais Gibson (don’t judge her on her eyebrows. But a lot of her videos, talks, courses helped me see my limerence was an unmet need):
 https://youtube.com/shorts/Z6gMwLfkGwI?si=PUPcBFnfIxbt6zbM

[Miss Philosopher]

I have been wanting to give an update on this challenge. … and ive written several posts but it just doesn’t feel “done” so …now I asked ChatGPT to make my rants shorter, highlight bullet points, and get to the point:

- **Growth and Reflection**: Completed a 40-day break from psychic readings, experiencing personal growth and reduced reliance on them.
- **New Coping Mechanisms**: Engaged in questioning feelings during uncertainty and avoiding usual triggers, thus improving emotional regulation.
- **Alcohol and Sobriety**: Successfully quit drinking alcohol, discovering the ability to have fun and enjoy social events without it. (I also went 40 days without alcohol)
- **Handling Anxiety**: Reduced need to ask anxiety-driven questions regarding personal relationships, becoming comfortable with uncertainty.
- **Financial Awareness**: Saved money by refraining from unnecessary readings, choosing to pay bills instead.
- **Emotional Intelligence**: Recognized the power to safely experience and process emotions like anger without external validation.
- **Simplified Rituals**: Streamlined spiritual practices to focus more on simple prayers and less on manifesting, avoiding burnout.
- **Support Systems**: Benefited from communities and resources like Thais Gibson’s attachment theory program and the Hallow app for emotional and spiritual support.
- **Therapeutic Insights**: Gained understanding and coping skills from therapy after experiencing workplace trauma, contributing to overall resilience.

Thanks ChatGPT

I also have these some videos that really inspired me. I can’t talk about this predilection without mentioning that perhaps at the core of a disease was how I put myself in a limerence situation, and acknowledging my attachment style. (And I’m not saying this so the answer for everybody but it’s definitely worth looking into) I grew up getting swept away in my emotions thinking it’s the end all be all, for some time I’ve wondered if I was borderline (and have had some medical expert both agree and disagree with that diagnosis- but it doesn’t matter). But, you know what emotions aren’t bad. They’re perceptions of your world view, and at times reflect or challenge a core belief. Feelings aren’t bad either; not good, nor bad, they’re definitely a flavor, or a vibe, but they’re ok to have, and at times need to be let out to get a neutral place. It’s the human experience.

Therapy in a nutshell:
https://youtu.be/X1RETMlk8rc?si=HvNjd_Bj0J88AYOg

Healing prolong grief (limerence, staying present):
https://youtu.be/uPkWHdamMfo?si=dHCba6c7BwmfL1eg

Thais Gibson (don’t judge her on her eyebrows. But a lot of her videos, talks, courses helped me see my limerence was an unmet need):
 https://youtube.com/shorts/Z6gMwLfkGwI?si=PUPcBFnfIxbt6zbM

First: Congratulations to you for this great accomplishment!
Second: I could not help but judge the eyebrows. Those things are like WHOA!

[Mina]

Thank you! Thank you!

Yeah… those eyebrows. But it seems like she is a genius with attachment styles, limerence, courses, daily videos… but those eyebrows…

[Miss Philosopher]

Thank you! Thank you!

Yeah… those eyebrows. But it seems like she is a genius with attachment styles, limerence, courses, daily videos… but those eyebrows…

Yes. She's definitely intelligent and knowledgeable. It's hard to focus on what she says because of the eyebrows though lol. Oh well. To each their own.