I updated on CC (I may update about others on this last binge) but I feel this part is more about wanting to be done readings (again)
What also helped me a lot this time around doing workbook therapy on my previous ex about narcissist abuse and healing via my attachment style.
And the truth is I have to actively take time FOR ME to put in place for me to practice :
Feel seen
Feel special
Feel safe and protected
Hold my boundaries
Let it be ok to express my anger and still love myself
I see I do put myself down hard with my inner dialogue
Like I see why the previous ex is very hard to get over, and how this new person started to meet this stuff. The prosperity of a new start with someone!
Lots of mindfulness when activated and art therapy
Prayer per usual
Sitting down with myself and writing out:
What do I think/feel will likely happen?
What am I afraid will happen?
What do I want to happen?
What do I think these ppl owe me?
Even grieving the relationship of what could have happen and the upside of letting it go?
Then writing out how I surrender all of this to God and be in mindfulness breath for couple minutes THEN going about my day. That’s it! Drop it! Go about my day and next moment at hand. (Which is a bit of manifesting and surrendering and detaching) BUT that’s the hardest thing for me to do. Just dropping it and go do something else! Fully be in something else, fully focus on other things… and that’s been such a huge challenge but it keeps in me the moment and promotes better outcomes and sanity instead of ruminating
This part is also helpful
The upside of letting go of what could have been. (Versus chasing to hear what I wanted to happen from psychics as a middle man and reminding myself I don’t have control of the future but I do of my actions and that all I can be. Will the good of myself and will the good of others not in vanity)
