I’m working day 4!
And ooofff I can feel my self wanting to break.
But again just taking one action, one moment at a time. I can only handle today and that’s more than enough.
And I’m making a list for myself and perhaps others (in the atomic habit fashion) what’s truly unattractive about calling psychics. Some were my own but some where also with the help of my ChatGPT (the irony):
-it cheapens real intuition (real intuition is quiet, an inner knowing… I really like this one a lot. It also forces me to define what is intuition?)
-it trains my brain to want more drama (I remember someone posting how when they gave up psychics (or perhaps it was about this groups) that they realized they kind of craved drama… and this is true. I do tend to crave just grubby feel for the highs and low (it’s not to shame but again “for entertainment purposes” there are times sitting with boredom is a good thing it helps us create other hobbies and things) I do see so many post with: well I was bored and I had free minutes … but honestly anytime I had free minutes I still spent money and most times more than I could budget
-it waste money on IMAGINARY CERTAINTIES (I had to sit with this… I’m often calling for feeling of relief and very little do I realize the relief feeling I’m “buying” isn’t even for real either)
-it keeps me emotionally exposed
- a stranger can ruin my day
- I give access to my inner world easily (ugh I feel so cheap and easy now… I forget my inner world is also private to me and a few should only be allowed)
-it gives off the icke vibes when I ask about ppl. It does. It’s like spending all day on someone social media I haven’t met but then I do meet them and they look at me like you’ve been watching them naked. Women be honest: ever get the creep vibes from someone you know who likes you but you can’t put your finger on it, yet something truly bothers you. Energetically this might be the same.
-It outsources my inner authority. Yes we’ve argued about free will all day long, and destiny… but there is still agency and just for minute trusting what you say matters (even if wrong, I choose, and I believe HAS POWER)
-I feel like I’m hiding a dirty secret. I weekly or daily have to clear my phone history so ppl don’t see the sites I’ve been to. I mean I dare not do look up the sites at a work computer … but everything is shared on the cloud and it’s getting harder and harder to keep a secret
I have more but I thought I’d share these for food for thought and perhaps ppl can add their own