Going to try again tomorrow (Wednesday). Confident that this time I can get through a day of no readings, even from trusted readers and favorites. As I've posted a few times, if there weren't readers I really enjoy speaking to, it would be easier. I've posted a few times that getting readings doesn't really take away the anxiety because I still worry about the outcome. Overall that's true, but I'll admit that there are some readers who do give me a sense of peace, albeit only temporarily. So, it's hard. If I could afford to have a 20 minute conversation with an advisor I know I like every day, I honestly think I would.
Passing along this tip - write down what your advisor says during the reading and put the total price next to it. One thing that has helped me a bit is making sure that I do this. Otherwise, all the readings blended together and I couldn't remember anything, including what I paid for it. Another perk is that when I feel like I want to call, I have a document I can go back and re-read that somewhat satisfies the urge.