I don’t think you’re brainwashed. Whether your positive or not, your thoughts create. Persist in something you believe to be true even if your current reality is the complete opposite, and it will manifest. Each seed has its own appointed hour....some may take months or longer. You’re manifesting every single day you just may not be aware. Imagination creates reality. In the past two months, I’ve manifested so many things, minor but It made me realize how much control I have over situations. My advice to anyone reading this: Only focus on what you want NOT the problem. This took me a long time to understand lol it’s a simple sentence but can be difficult to adjust at first because whatever is impressed upon the subconscious mind, is what you’re experiencing in life. I promise this stuff works.