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flora0250:
According to Keen the last time I had a reading was 36 days ago and the last time I paid for a reading was 46 days ago.

I am definitely feeling better overall and am more appreciative of the impact that not having readings has had than having readings. I have been tempted. At a moment where I’m thinking okay it’s been a good while now and there’s someone I wanted to try and she’s not that much and I still want to know this and that and oh this other new thing came up... but the strangest thing...

I feel like now that things are going better (I am better able to navigate through my emotions about my POI and things are better hopefully with work I think) — I’m like wow okay I feel like I’m on a roll of sorts. I don’t. Want. To. Jinx. It!

So that’s what’s keeping me from adding money and calling. I just can’t bring myself to do it. Because it’s like if I do it if I get a reading then I will never know what would have happened if I just let things alone and didn’t get a reading. How funny is that?!? I feel like if I *dont* call about this guy or my work situation I may be more likely to have things go well than if I do. So if I break this steak and give in to wanting to get a reading about things ... then I may completely mess up the energy around either situation. And I will never know once I break that streak.

So I’m not. Maybe in another month? Or when something changes one way or another. But for now I can’t bring myself to do it.

Not to mention the money! My gosh I can’t think about how much money I’ve spent over the last year and a half. It’s astounding and I could have paid off so much debt. I think about it now in terms of how much it’s equivalent to. Like okay I could get a pair of shoes for that reading. I’m not getting the shoes so how can I get a reading?!?

Yaz88:
Flora, I’m starting to feel the same way.  I’m glad you are doing well!

flora0250:

--- Quote from: Yaz88 on September 29, 2019, 12:00:19 PM ---Flora, I’m starting to feel the same way.  I’m glad you are doing well!

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Thank you Yaz! Great to hear! You too and thanks again!

maggs30:
Congrats Flora! I'm only at day 5 and my Yona top up is Tuesday. I'm fighting to not get a ready before Yona so it doesn't affect the energy Yona sees. We all have little reasons that help us start breaking the cycle and yours is a good one.

Just FYI:

--- Quote from: flora0250 on September 29, 2019, 11:57:07 AM ---According to Keen the last time I had a reading was 36 days ago and the last time I paid for a reading was 46 days ago.

I am definitely feeling better overall and am more appreciative of the impact that not having readings has had than having readings. I have been tempted. At a moment where I’m thinking okay it’s been a good while now and there’s someone I wanted to try and she’s not that much and I still want to know this and that and oh this other new thing came up... but the strangest thing...

I feel like now that things are going better (I am better able to navigate through my emotions about my POI and things are better hopefully with work I think) — I’m like wow okay I feel like I’m on a roll of sorts. I don’t. Want. To. Jinx. It!

So that’s what’s keeping me from adding money and calling. I just can’t bring myself to do it. Because it’s like if I do it if I get a reading then I will never know what would have happened if I just let things alone and didn’t get a reading. How funny is that?!? I feel like if I *dont* call about this guy or my work situation I may be more likely to have things go well than if I do. So if I break this steak and give in to wanting to get a reading about things ... then I may completely mess up the energy around either situation. And I will never know once I break that streak.

So I’m not. Maybe in another month? Or when something changes one way or another. But for now I can’t bring myself to do it.

Not to mention the money! My gosh I can’t think about how much money I’ve spent over the last year and a half. It’s astounding and I could have paid off so much debt. I think about it now in terms of how much it’s equivalent to. Like okay I could get a pair of shoes for that reading. I’m not getting the shoes so how can I get a reading?!?

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That’s awesome you’ve found a way to talk yourself through urges and keep your streak! Keep going!!

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