For me it's anxiety. I was tempted to call recently but haven't.
I probably needed a hug and be told it will be OK. So it's the anxiety and loneliness for me. Also, I like being in control and you can't always.
I'd still like to speak to a genuine clairvoyant with time frames. But it's only happened once and he has retired. I'm not prepared to waste my money any more.
I would like that belief that things will get better and be OK.