I think the lack of closure for me has also been what has held me back from moving on. Like you, s&m, my ex pursued me relentlessly, was always with me, always told me no matter what happened between us he'd never turn his back on me, etc. etc. Yet, it's been 10 months and nothing. Every attempt I've made, and believe me it was few and far between and I gave up a few months ago, he thwarted and would end the call in seconds flat. To make matters worse, he's already in a new relationship and has been in one for a while now. It makes me feel as if all the love he claimed to have had for me was all BS. His reason for leaving the relationship was that he had been in LTR's since HS and had never been single and wanted to figure himself out. Apparently it only took him 5 months to figure himself out because that's how long it was before he had a new gf. I guess at this point I am bitter but that's getting less and less everyday. Of course every prediction I've gotten for contact or reconciliation has obviously not come to pass, but I still have hope on some level. He and I are still involved in each others lives on the fringes. We have lots of mutual friends and similar lifestyles so we have seen each other publicly and for the most part we are cool with one another, but our conversations might as well be about the weather because he talks to me like I am merely an acquaintance. Sometimes I wish there was a pill I could take that would make me forget that he was the love of my life, I'd spend more money on that than the small fortune I've spent on readings, hahaha!! Anyway, sorry for rambling on. But, yes, closure is def an issue for me, too. I've always gotten closure in my past relationships but for some reason this man refuses to give me that peace and yes I have even literally asked him for as much.
