To Anna the OP: You will not get any judgment from me as I do not know your situation and it is not my rightful place to judge you or the veracity and correctness of the desire of your heart to be a mother. I highly suggest that you stay away from the platform readers, being that the vulnerability of your circumstances and emotions will likely result in one of two things (1) the reader feeds into your emotional upheaval to keep you on the phone and it ends up costing you half your monthly income; or (2) the reader reacts harshly and condescendingly to your predicament, which will most likely only add to your confusion and depression. Unfortunately, all of the legitimate and succinct readers that I know of on the platforms would most likely not offer much in the way of empathy (they wouldn’t take your money, but you wouldn’t get much guidance).
Depending on what it is you’d like to sort through, the most empathetic readers (meaning kind and patient) off the platforms, who make use of a flate fee corresponding with time, are Lady Persephone, Matilda, Yona (but she is booked out for weeks). You may have better luck going to a local psychic that has good google reviews and can offer psychic ability with some practical guidance.
Best of luck to you and may you find the clarity you desire. Remember, you do have your own intuition and the ability to quiet your mind. Don’t discount your own powers and your own magnificent connection to the divine.