I'm in that place that I hate.

[LAW1974]

You know the place. The place in between readings. That place where if you get another reading, you end up regretting it because it doesn't add anything but maybe more confusion. So you don't get a reading. The place where predictions are 2 months out, but you don't see any progress. The place where your head says "damn you're a fool. Just get over it like 'normal' people do" but you heart says "No, it can't just be like this. I need one more conversatio n. I'm not done yet. You didn't hear me. How? Why?". Ugh, I really hate this place. I reread old chat transcripts and old email readings. I'm sad because my head is winning the fight this time. I do feel like a fool. Two years of just being stupid, desperate. I hate this place. It does get better, right? I mean it HAS to. Anyway, just talking out loud. And yeah, I didn't get a reading...

Fidg -- ME TOO!  All of my predictions are coming up and oddly, I have all of these really strong gut feelings right now....  We can try and be strong together?  This is where you can delve into the numerology or astrology part of it?  I have started reading a little about that and doing a lot of LOA stuff (reading Hilgier and Hicks books) -- it helps.....  It kind of brings it all together?  Just a thought

[Yt5587]

You know the place. The place in between readings. That place where if you get another reading, you end up regretting it because it doesn't add anything but maybe more confusion. So you don't get a reading. The place where predictions are 2 months out, but you don't see any progress. The place where your head says "damn you're a fool. Just get over it like 'normal' people do" but you heart says "No, it can't just be like this. I need one more conversatio n. I'm not done yet. You didn't hear me. How? Why?". Ugh, I really hate this place. I reread old chat transcripts and old email readings. I'm sad because my head is winning the fight this time. I do feel like a fool. Two years of just being stupid, desperate. I hate this place. It does get better, right? I mean it HAS to. Anyway, just talking out loud. And yeah, I didn't get a reading...

Fidg -- ME TOO!  All of my predictions are coming up and oddly, I have all of these really strong gut feelings right now....  We can try and be strong together?  This is where you can delve into the numerology or astrology part of it?  I have started reading a little about that and doing a lot of LOA stuff (reading Hilgier and Hicks books) -- it helps.....  It kind of brings it all together?  Just a thought

This is what’s working for me, learning more and more about loa and quantum psychics, you start to realize how much control you have in your destiny. I’ve been practicing a lot of self love and I’ve been scripting for two weeks now and I’m really starting to feel as if it’s happening. It’s crazy how the mind works!

Fidge, you’re so strong! Love you and here for you! ❤️

[mstiv]

Hi Fidget and everyone else who reads this I am new to this site and this is my first post. I really don’t mean to hurt anyone if I say something that maybe doesn’t resonate. I am currently in a situation similar to yours Fidget and I have to admit it’s probably the hardest place to be.. I read a quote once that said “waiting is painful, forgetting is painful but not know which to do is probably the worst kind of suffering”.. it’s so true and sad at the same time but I’ve come to realize that sometimes we put ourselves in that situation (not on purpose tho) Sometiens we don’t want to admit  that if we’ve invested so much time, hope and money to a situation and nothing or hardly anything has happened then maybe  it’s the healthiest emotionally  to let go and try to overcome it. It’s definitely not easy and it hurts like crazy b/c the memories and the time shared will always there.  But we have to take care of ourselves  first and fix our interiors emotonally before trying to embark on a relationshi p. I can assure you we will get through it!   In my situation I’ve decided to try to let go. It hit me this morning that if nothing positive has happened thus far then that’s a sign from the universe telling me to move on and be happy on my own until he comes back or someone else comes that really appreciates everything I have to offer. To everyone reading this I would say by happy, life is to short to spend it suffering or waiting for something or someone to change... if something is meant to be it will eventually happen at it own time when the univers feels like you are ready hope it makes you feel a little better <3

[sawthelight]

Hi Fidget and everyone else who reads this I am new to this site and this is my first post. I really don’t mean to hurt anyone if I say something that maybe doesn’t resonate. I am currently in a situation similar to yours Fidget and I have to admit it’s probably the hardest place to be.. I read a quote once that said “waiting is painful, forgetting is painful but not know which to do is probably the worst kind of suffering”.. it’s so true and sad at the same time but I’ve come to realize that sometimes we put ourselves in that situation (not on purpose tho) Sometiens we don’t want to admit  that if we’ve invested so much time, hope and money to a situation and nothing or hardly anything has happened then maybe  it’s the healthiest emotionally  to let go and try to overcome it. It’s definitely not easy and it hurts like crazy b/c the memories and the time shared will always there.  But we have to take care of ourselves  first and fix our interiors emotonally before trying to embark on a relationshi p. I can assure you we will get through it!   In my situation I’ve decided to try to let go. It hit me this morning that if nothing positive has happened thus far then that’s a sign from the universe telling me to move on and be happy on my own until he comes back or someone else comes that really appreciates everything I have to offer. To everyone reading this I would say by happy, life is to short to spend it suffering or waiting for something or someone to change... if something is meant to be it will eventually happen at it own time when the univers feels like you are ready hope it makes you feel a little better <3

Wow great first post!  Agree completely!

[Kat23]

Hi Fidget and everyone else who reads this I am new to this site and this is my first post. I really don’t mean to hurt anyone if I say something that maybe doesn’t resonate. I am currently in a situation similar to yours Fidget and I have to admit it’s probably the hardest place to be.. I read a quote once that said “waiting is painful, forgetting is painful but not know which to do is probably the worst kind of suffering”.. it’s so true and sad at the same time but I’ve come to realize that sometimes we put ourselves in that situation (not on purpose tho) Sometiens we don’t want to admit  that if we’ve invested so much time, hope and money to a situation and nothing or hardly anything has happened then maybe  it’s the healthiest emotionally  to let go and try to overcome it. It’s definitely not easy and it hurts like crazy b/c the memories and the time shared will always there.  But we have to take care of ourselves  first and fix our interiors emotonally before trying to embark on a relationshi p. I can assure you we will get through it!   In my situation I’ve decided to try to let go. It hit me this morning that if nothing positive has happened thus far then that’s a sign from the universe telling me to move on and be happy on my own until he comes back or someone else comes that really appreciates everything I have to offer. To everyone reading this I would say by happy, life is to short to spend it suffering or waiting for something or someone to change... if something is meant to be it will eventually happen at it own time when the univers feels like you are ready hope it makes you feel a little better <3

Wow great first post!  Agree completely!

It is easy for friends, psychic to say "let it go" but each one of us handle pain / grief differently .... we go thru stages ...sadness, depression, fear of loneliness, anger   time heals all pain..maybe numb the pain... we moved on when our focus are elsewhere ..family situation, new POI etc...


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[Miller1336]

Oh I feel ya! I’m in that spot too. Now I’m finding stuff to do around the house. I’m glad I’m working late tonight!!!

For me I’m just trying to breathe. I feel like an addict going into withdrawals cept this time I’m going to meditate and keep busy and just thank my lucky stars that I am alive and healthy.

During this whole process I am learning about my own self-worth. Why do I keep going down the path where there’s no reward. I want the damn cheese and not the mouse trap if you know what I mean. It’s time to try some new and it’s called focusing on myself which is very strange for me because I’ve never done that.

Sending you some positive vibes. Push through. Get that damn cheese!!!

[Jili1945]

@Fidget: Thanks for sharing your story. I'm in the same situation and totally understand you. I admit that it's a really hard place and waiting is painful. Frequent readings add confusions. Time frames come one after another and nothing happens. I heartily understand you and I'm experiencin g the same exact. Stay strong and I am sure it will crack one day ... hopefully very soon.

[KotaSwan]

Sorry Fidget that you are feeling this way. I know that pain and have been feeling the same. One thing that did help is knowing what is meant for me will happen...if you are religious you can say God will give it to me no matter what and if you are not I know the universe will fulfill my desires at the right time when I am ready. I have been trying to not read right now and just see how things pan out from the past readings and stay hopeful about the future. I am trying to keep myself busy with tv, long work hours and friends. It does help sometimes.. ..sending you love and hugs <3

[ZZ2112]

Attachment is the root of suffering - Buddha

I'm in the same place right now. I keep telling myself to wait out the predictions but every other day I find myself scrolling through the available psychics then talking myself out of another reading
Even if I try to keep myself busy, there's still a constant battle in my head of "What ifs". Big hugs to everyone, let's all stay strong and rant here instead of succumbing to another reading ❤

[sawthelight]

FREAKING LOVE THIS!!

[poorprincess]

@Fidget, for what it is worth. I feel this way exactly. Thank you and everyone who has chimed in for being brave enough to share it and reminding someone like me that I am not alone. Hang in there, sending you all my positivity. There is this strange feeling of comfort in solidarity. <3

[jcanya]

I hope you get to "my place" one day where you stop with the readings and just live your life because things are going to happen whether a psychic tells you or not. all readings do is cause you anxiety over something that may or may not happen. remember how life was before you got hooked on readings? don't you miss that?

[Fidget1028]

Thanks everyone for your kind responses. I know most people have been in "that place" and it's an ugly, ugly spot to be in. I'm good today. Sometimes it just sneaks up on you like a ton of bricks smacking you in the head. I don't want more readings. I really just want to be happy again. I was happy and alone after my divorce. It definitely is possible to be happy and alone. I have great friends, colleagues, kids, and extended family so I'm not "lonely". I actually fly pretty well solo, if I do say so myself. No answers, people who "ghost" you, unfinished business can really play with your head. I'm coming to the realization that moving ahead despite the "unfinished business" may just be the lesson that I have to learn. I need to not only forgive my POI for his running away and leaving me hanging, but I also have to forgive myself for my 2 year unhealthy reaction to it. I know I'm a good person with a good heart. I know that at some point this will be just a part of my history. I'm working very hard at letting go of the past as well as obsessing over the future. The here and now is what is important.

[Fidget1028]

So I just wanted to give a brief update. Some weird stuff today and any input will be welcomed.

So, I've been dealing with a lot of sadness and anger because of the "limbo" between me and my POI. As you recall there was an odd incident last month where he contacted my stepdaughte r, completely by accident, looking for his son who was MIA. This son was a big part of our break up since my POI felt obligated to to deal with the issues surrounding his son's addiction and couldn't handle a relationshi p. This incident last month reminded me a lot that the same issues still exist and put me on a downward spiral that nothing is going to change. I prayed and ask my guides to either move things along with the situation or to put him out of my mind.

Last night I woke up at 4 am for no apparent reason. Sometimes I will wake up if I'm worried about something, but this wasn't like that. I was wide awake and had an overwhelmin g feeling that somehow everything would be ok today. It seemed unlikely because the whole weekend was kind of depressing. I tried to go back to sleep, but couldn't. I got up at 6 am and turned on the news. Of course the first thing I saw was coverage from the superbowl. I remembered that Shelly UK said something about football players in scrum marking that my POI wants to move closer to me. I kind of giggled.  I went on to my phone to check social media and saw that my POI's son (the one who was MIA) was posting. He's doing good, back at the gym, talking about his sobriety. That made my heart happy. I checked my email and my tax refund that is due the end of the month, is being deposited in 2 days! Thank God that some of my financial burden will be lifted. Kisha said that I would feel more stable February/March. I also got a random text from one of my long time guy friends. We haven't talked in months. We texted back and forth for a while just catching up. I told him how I was feeling about life and he gave me pep talk. Kisha also said that I would be in touch with one of my "platonic" male friends and he would encourage me. I thought it was pretty cool.

So... all of my trusted advisors said that I need to let it go, be happy with myself, gain my confidence back before anything could progress with my POI. I feel that I am FINALLY starting to get it. The anger lifted today. I feel some hope again. Maybe, just maybe, the limbo will stop. I don't know, but I think my "guide" woke me this morning to give me a sign. What do you all think?

[LAW1974]

So I just wanted to give a brief update. Some weird stuff today and any input will be welcomed.

So, I've been dealing with a lot of sadness and anger because of the "limbo" between me and my POI. As you recall there was an odd incident last month where he contacted my stepdaughte r, completely by accident, looking for his son who was MIA. This son was a big part of our break up since my POI felt obligated to to deal with the issues surrounding his son's addiction and couldn't handle a relationshi p. This incident last month reminded me a lot that the same issues still exist and put me on a downward spiral that nothing is going to change. I prayed and ask my guides to either move things along with the situation or to put him out of my mind.

Last night I woke up at 4 am for no apparent reason. Sometimes I will wake up if I'm worried about something, but this wasn't like that. I was wide awake and had an overwhelmin g feeling that somehow everything would be ok today. It seemed unlikely because the whole weekend was kind of depressing. I tried to go back to sleep, but couldn't. I got up at 6 am and turned on the news. Of course the first thing I saw was coverage from the superbowl. I remembered that Shelly UK said something about football players in scrum marking that my POI wants to move closer to me. I kind of giggled.  I went on to my phone to check social media and saw that my POI's son (the one who was MIA) was posting. He's doing good, back at the gym, talking about his sobriety. That made my heart happy. I checked my email and my tax refund that is due the end of the month, is being deposited in 2 days! Thank God that some of my financial burden will be lifted. Kisha said that I would feel more stable February/March. I also got a random text from one of my long time guy friends. We haven't talked in months. We texted back and forth for a while just catching up. I told him how I was feeling about life and he gave me pep talk. Kisha also said that I would be in touch with one of my "platonic" male friends and he would encourage me. I thought it was pretty cool.

So... all of my trusted advisors said that I need to let it go, be happy with myself, gain my confidence back before anything could progress with my POI. I feel that I am FINALLY starting to get it. The anger lifted today. I feel some hope again. Maybe, just maybe, the limbo will stop. I don't know, but I think my "guide" woke me this morning to give me a sign. What do you all think?

I am so glad you are having positive thoughts... .  I definitely tend to agree with your markers and most important you waking up knowing everything was just going to be okay:).