I really feel my first POI was a narc too. I do think knowing me made him feel things he never felt and didn’t know how to handle because he was so closed off and cold emotionally. There were times we were getting along so well, and then like a light switch, he would turn on me and act like a total jerk. I remember thinking what the heck is wrong with this guy?
When I finally started to wake up and not take his crap anymore, he would TRY to change his behavior but I could see the old him always peeking through. It just wasn’t in him to be a warm loving person.