Well...there's really no other way to begin this so I'm just gonna dive right in. I'm leaving the forum guys. I've drifted more and more recently and finally decided it's time to just say goodbye.
I've spent too much time and money focusing on readings. I found a recent video that made so much freaking sense to me; it wasn't anything I hadn't heard before but for some reason this particular one resonated with me.
Basically, the woman is talking about manifesting and detaching and etc, but in one video she goes on to talk about how when you want something, no matter what it is, whether it's love, or a new job, or money, or even just a free cup of coffee at starbucks, you need to not worry about HOW it will happen and says that we can't focus on not yet having what we want. We have to just know what we want, believe that it will happen, and let it go. We can't focus on the how. We can't focus on the absence of it. We can't focus on the fear or anger or sadness of if it doesn't happen. And really that's what I've been doing for so long!
She goes on to say how we can't worry about the HOW so much, because that can make things drag on. We can't worry about what will lead up to that end goal, or the actions we need to take (because in time we will know what we need to do). We just need to focus on the WHAT actually happening. Focusing on the how and the when and all the details make it drag on or not happen, because we are instead focusing on it as a fear of not happening and essentially bringing in that resistant energy and pushing away what we want.(We can't focus on what we don't want to happen either).
And it was just like a freaking lightbulb I tell ya!! lol I've been so wrapped up in the how and the when for so long... no wonder things have dragged on! I lost myself worrying about predictions as opposed to just living life and having faith what I want will happen. I know there's a difference of opinions on manifesting and visualizing and LOA and all of that... but I truly am a firm believer of manifesting. I've seen it work in both the positive and the negative for me. And really, think about it, before we all got into readings, we never worried as much as we have about the HOW, right? We just lived life blindly, hoping for things, planning ahead for some things, but never so focused on the how or the when or what we don't want. I mean, thats how I was at least lol. I just lived. Sure there were things I manifested or maybe intuitively knew was coming... but still, even then, I just KNEW it was going to happen while still being okay with it if it didnt. I still remember at that point being so excited for something, feeling how I would feel when it did happen, but I was just so sure it was going to happen that I didn't allow for the fear of it not happening to even breach my mind. But at the same time I knew that if it didnt happen, I'd be okay.
But that video isn't the only reason I'm leaving, I just feel that it is time. It just didn't feel right to not say goodbye. I still have lots of time for my predictions to come to pass, but I'm not going to focus on that timing anymore, I'm not going to focus on the hows or the little details. I'm just going to live, like I used to, having faith that in the end it will all work out. I've learned a lot over this past year, and I've slowly found my old self again, while being a little wiser for the wear haha. After all, there's no success without failure right?! Now it's time to just focus on me; paying off that debt, living life, being happy, having faith that my POI and I WILL reunite, and that I will be happy in life!
I wish you all the best and hope you all find your happy end goal
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