I think it was definitely meant to be that you talked to him. I'm happy for you that you were able to talk to him.
I totally understand the pain, girlie. I know it's different types of pain we all experience, but for all of us it's profound, deep and at some times takes your breath away. Personally, it also makes me feel pretty lame for hanging on to the past and hoping all these future possibilities actually f-ing happen.
Stella said I'd have a message from him soon. That's what they all say.