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« Last post by sai07 on May 22, 2024, 04:55:38 PM »
Just an update - I went through some bad binges over the weekend and up till yesterday and now I feel I have it decently out of my system. The only reason I was calling was for my POI and I have decided to walk away from him so there's no point anymore.
Some psychics have continued to say it's going to work out despite him talking to multiple girls and not talking to me (wtf lol??) and I just cannot continue to see how that will happen. It's a turn off when someone gives someone else attention over you. I also feel if someone gives you THAT much anxiety and makes you go to psychics that much, they're not for you or they're not ready and there's no point in constantly checking if they ever will be ready for you. Everyday that passes, while agonizing, I feel more and more comfortable with my decision to walk away and just let things happen organically in my life. I don't need to know the future, it's just not worth it. All the psychics are half-wrong anyways. I have yet to meet someone that gives you a complete picture and then predicts outcomes accurately.
When I am ready, maybe in a few weeks or a couple months, I will open myself up to dating again.
But I am ready to move on and invest in myself.
There are periods of loneliness. I have to figure those out but the unsurmountable depression - thankfully, is lifting slowly, a bit at a time.