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Getting closer to 2 whole weeks without readings

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Notacrystalfreak:
I like reading your posts. If you want to blog here write away. I think a lot of us like to visit this forum and see what’s going on.

Mina:
Made it to week 3!

More like currently working on week 3
I gave into a midline boundary that I did break (midline boundary: borderline from the possibility to engage in an addictive behavior. I am engaging in smoking weed- even though I had more than 90 days of sobriety with this. But staying strong in no drinking even though I am bartending at one of my side gigs)

My trigger came Sunday night. I lost my recently expensive purchased lumen and yup my mind went to well who’s a good remote viewer? But briefly… I thought of one and remembered well she is a little cray… the ends really don’t justify the means compared to staying sober. But that doesn’t mean I wasn’t angry upset, hurt, and frustrated. These feelings are manageable. The money lost IS manageable.

I did find it though, that lumen (a lumen is an expensive weight loss tool), so I didn’t lose money.

Ugh, but I did go through this whole process of grief: begging, desperation, depression, anger, denial, etc

Before I found it, I prayed. Listened to father Mike Schmitz and his talk about “the view from mountain top”. Almost like the means to the end. And Father Mike Schmitz clearly states life is not that way; it isn’t pretty clean cut package and there isn’t a nicely wrapped ending where everyone gets what they want and solved.

Overall that was my biggest trigger this week. Losing something and wanting both reassurance I would find it, and knowing it was able to be found! How to direct faith id be ok.

I also questioned my whole instincts. My gut/feeling/instinct said “I’d find it, and by morning I’d be using it.” But that evening my feelings felt uneasy. Then I started to question my intuition with other things I felt uneasy or thought I needed a psychic reading: SP, career, …my tire warranty, honestly anything and random. I didn’t question other things but that is the human fallacy: use past experiences and give them same value on how I handled based on my “instincts”. At the same time there is a time and place to listen to one’s instinct and just let it be, not obsess about it.

Regardless working on week 3
Enjoying the benefits of using my money for much needed self care such as updated eye prescription, new tires… and eating out

Mina:
So I’ve been rewriting this over and over

But yes I touched 4 weeks! 4 weeks of no psychic reads! Also 4 weeks of no alcohol! …As for weed I did give into that.

But I am so proud, excited and I feel accomplished. I’m holding a boundary to myself and that feels so good! To do right by you!

But … now yes… I do think of giving in now. I am preemptively thinking who can read with once lent ends. I also feel my finances are getting exponentially better because I haven’t called. Like that seems to be the subconscious fear behind that thought. And like my weed encounter I can’t just do it once. Ugh AND it takes me so much energy to quit… it takes so much energy to quit anything!

Anyways… I am also happy to say I just got back from the dentist. Had a long overdue dental cleaning and I love this… I am relearning to invest in me, or take care of my health… and again it’s hard. Because when I look at how much it cost… it gets scary again.

Anywho just wanted to update. Made it to 4 weeks!

Mina:
My last reading was March 3, 2025 … is today really 5 weeks?! I’m shocked I’ve gone this long… it feels like 3 weeks. Like I’m still trying to put the words for week 3. I get so excited counting the weeks I’ve “sustained”.

But don’t get me wrong, last night I was looking at who could I call or who was around? Then I was left to go over my notes and listened to a recorded reading I had… which made me really sad. My “in place measures” were there; I have some protective measures in place. Like the utmost minimal amount in my bank account to prevent me from getting a reading. A list of bills I want to pay this week and goals. And for me to put shoes and a bra on just so I can deposit money in the bank and not get an overdraft fee - That’s too much man. I’m glad I found it all exhausting. Because now I was crying at this prediction that may or may not happen.

Sometimes when I read some posts I can read some y’all’s thinking patterns and want to say “trust in yourself” “believe in yourself to be strong enough” that whatever outcome or this you will get thru it. Then live your life. Because what you spend most time doing that what you have to show for…
I’ve been trying to work out and showing consistently is hard. But 3 weeks will pass… the 5 weeks … 6 weeks all of will pass, how will I show my time for it?

Mina:
So good! Six weeks today! Without an official psychic readings!

I love these Mondays! I do genuinely feel happier and less anxious. I do get sad about why I called, but I also trust everything in my life does get resolved is justified. I do have so many blessings. My biggest breakthrough this week was there family upset and it is still ongoing but I trust I will get thru it. I also do way less manifesting techniques or watch videos or care to.i feel this has gotten way simpler for me. even though there is lots of uncertainty (my job, upcoming moves, parents health, friendships) I just have so much trust in my life. I feel so refreshed … like my time is my own again

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