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Lovefash67:
This is just a rant which I haven't done in a while.

Since  2016, I would my life has been pretty shitty. There have been moments were things were okay but not necessarily amazing. I feel like my life has been stagnant in a sense that I feel like I have not really accomplished much and its not because I have not been putting in the work but because I guess I am not suppose to have it.

I feel like everyone around me is progressing money wise,career wise, relationship wise. I am still struggling in all those aspects. I no longer have hope. I feel like I have pushed my self each year saying next year will be good and each year I am just hit with disappointment.

Over the years I have slowed down on psychic readings tremendously and it could be due to me feeling I have found psychics that somewhat work for me or I'm just over spending  large amount of money. But everyone and then I have a reading and its usually when I am feeling anxious and disappointed about life.

My go to reader has been Yona and Kiesha and sometimes lady P. I  would say for the last 4 years I have read with them the most. Yona I have had faith in because she has gotten lots of things right for even big work and school predictions. Lat year, Yona expressed that I could get a little excited and how my life will be turning around. I started to be hopeful of that in November 2019. But then of course I was once again humbled.

I am in a living situation that I honestly hat and feel is unfair to me that I am trying to get out but yet I feel stuck because I have to pay for my school tuition, student loans, rent, retirement etc. That I can't even live in my own apartment. Im going too be 28 in September and I just feel like I should have been married by now in my own condo and I can't even get my own apartment let alone a man.
 I had a POI who I had chemistry with which I hadn't had in a long time and I let him go because I didn't feel like things were progressing and Kiesha confirmed my suspicions. For the last month I had been so focus on work and moving that I wasn't hung up on the fact that POI and hadn't talked in a while but now I am feeling like crap. I thought after cutting things off on Tuesday that I would feel amazing and after an hour I felt horrible. I am not surprised POI didn't respond back , he's the type of person if you tell him to get lost he will he won't fight it. I am disappointed by this situation because I know him and how he can be that I expected him to be that way. I wanted him.

With work, I just hate my job. I hate the way people treat each other there. I feel like everyone is just either uncouth or just disorganized. On top of it , I am not even getting the pay that I deserve that matched my work experience. I have been fighting for a promotion since last year and in July 2019 I was told that I couldn't get it but I can take a test and I will most likely get it. Now, I  am being told again I can't get it.

I just want a break. I feel so scared for my future that I just done see the rainbow at the end. I dont want to go through another year of heartache and disappointment.

Calleronhiatus:

--- Quote from: Lovefash67 on April 30, 2020, 05:02:16 PM ---This is just a rant which I haven't done in a while.

Since  2016, I would my life has been pretty shitty. There have been moments were things were okay but not necessarily amazing. I feel like my life has been stagnant in a sense that I feel like I have not really accomplished much and its not because I have not been putting in the work but because I guess I am not suppose to have it.

I feel like everyone around me is progressing money wise,career wise, relationship wise. I am still struggling in all those aspects. I no longer have hope. I feel like I have pushed my self each year saying next year will be good and each year I am just hit with disappointment.

Over the years I have slowed down on psychic readings tremendously and it could be due to me feeling I have found psychics that somewhat work for me or I'm just over spending  large amount of money. But everyone and then I have a reading and its usually when I am feeling anxious and disappointed about life.

My go to reader has been Yona and Kiesha and sometimes lady P. I  would say for the last 4 years I have read with them the most. Yona I have had faith in because she has gotten lots of things right for even big work and school predictions. Lat year, Yona expressed that I could get a little excited and how my life will be turning around. I started to be hopeful of that in November 2019. But then of course I was once again humbled.

I am in a living situation that I honestly hat and feel is unfair to me that I am trying to get out but yet I feel stuck because I have to pay for my school tuition, student loans, rent, retirement etc. That I can't even live in my own apartment. Im going too be 28 in September and I just feel like I should have been married by now in my own condo and I can't even get my own apartment let alone a man.
 I had a POI who I had chemistry with which I hadn't had in a long time and I let him go because I didn't feel like things were progressing and Kiesha confirmed my suspicions. For the last month I had been so focus on work and moving that I wasn't hung up on the fact that POI and hadn't talked in a while but now I am feeling like crap. I thought after cutting things off on Tuesday that I would feel amazing and after an hour I felt horrible. I am not surprised POI didn't respond back , he's the type of person if you tell him to get lost he will he won't fight it. I am disappointed by this situation because I know him and how he can be that I expected him to be that way. I wanted him.

With work, I just hate my job. I hate the way people treat each other there. I feel like everyone is just either uncouth or just disorganized. On top of it , I am not even getting the pay that I deserve that matched my work experience. I have been fighting for a promotion since last year and in July 2019 I was told that I couldn't get it but I can take a test and I will most likely get it. Now, I  am being told again I can't get it.

I just want a break. I feel so scared for my future that I just done see the rainbow at the end. I dont want to go through another year of heartache and disappointment.

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Do you have anyone to talk to? Not for readings but someone that can help you figure out a plan of action or anything?

Intheotherside:
I know it is hard to see the bright and good side, believe me. My life turned upside down a few years ago, and it may seem that I lost everything, but I am gaining my freedom back. You cannot lose faith. At your age I was left by my 5-year boyfriend and thanks to that, I decided to move abroad to pursue my first Grad school. It changed my life. I believe it is important to talk to someone as mentioned.

Calleronhiatus:

--- Quote from: Intheotherside on April 30, 2020, 05:16:30 PM ---I know it is hard to see the bright and good side, believe me. My life turned upside down a few years ago, and it may seem that I lost everything, but I am gaining my freedom back. You cannot lose faith. At your age I was left by my 5-year boyfriend and thanks to that, I decided to move abroad to pursue my first Grad school. It changed my life. I believe it is important to talk to someone as mentioned.

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There are a lot of therapists and counselors offering free phone services during this pandemic. Maybe you can find someone that can help you sort out what you are going through. An unbiased opinion may help you figure out a plan to help you get ahead. You are not alone. There are people that will help you if you need it. There is no shame in asking for helpful advice. Sending you love and good vibes.

Natashanyc:
FEEL FREE TO REACH OUT IF U NEED TO VENT SENDING POSITIVE VIBES !!!

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