This is a subject close to my heart... both from the perspective of having left a marriage as well as the current situation with my POI.
It was incredibly hard to leave my marriage as I have a young son and I knew my ex would do everything possible to drain all possible financial resources I had which were basically none anyway and I had extremely little family financial support. While my ex had extensive family in the area and tons of financial support so he was able to drag me through the family court system this way and that way for two years. I knew it would happen. I am now barely making it and on the verge of thinking about if I will need to file for bankruptcy. I am trying to make changes but it is very very difficult with no family and a young child.
Still, I don’t regret leaving. I don’t know what will happen. I don’t know how I’m going to even things out but I know they will. I have some plans but I don’t know if they will pan out. Still. It was still better than living with a man who was starting to be emotionally abusive and once it became physical I knew it was the right decision to go through with the divorce. Very complicated. And to this day I fight the thought of if I had stayed. And I still love this man. And I love my child more than anything or anyone else and so I am literally rebuilding bridges with the man who abused me because I want my child to have a good relationship with him. He was a great dad. Shitty husband. Great dad. So I won’t ever take that away from my son.
If I didn’t have a good job going I don’t know how I ever would have been able to leave unless it had gotten so bad that I would have gone to a shelter or something. But thankfully I at least had and have a good job.
Barely hung on to it but did.
As far as my current POI.... I know it may sound naive to people reading this but I still absolutely believe that there is some financial benefit for him to stay with the woman he’s with. I don’t understand all the pieces but I understand enough to think that’s the case 100 percent. I am sure there are likely other reasons too like a sense of obligation to a commitment he may have previously made to her in some way... this is just what I am convinced of when I put all the pieces together. From everything he said the way he acted everything I see now... which is very little ... and so I am accepting that all of those things ... I mean either he is truly in love and happy And maybe I’m just all wrong.
Or if I’m right .... what a couple readers have said who I still trust ....he needs to decide if he’s going to get out of his karmic pattern of staying somewhere he’s not happy out of a sense of obligation and sacrifice. Or money concerns. If he wanted to reach out to me it would have to mean that he would decide that he really did have happiness with me and wanted to risk free falling financially as well as putting his own desires above someone else’s. And he may not do that. He may also think I didn’t want him as much as I do. That I wasn’t in love with him when I was because I didn’t want to shoe that and be rejected. So at this point. I really do think it’s unlikely I will hear from him. It seems he’s made up his mind and I won’t ever really know if my instincts are right or not.
Since he’s with someone else I would not reach out to him.
But I still am in this space of waiting to see. Maybe he’ll marry her. Cookie told me long ago that he would say he was going to marry someone but wouldn’t go through with it. But then again she got a lot of other things completely wrong. Leanne told me he would marry this woman but that we would have a heart to heart at some point before that .... literally every other prediction she made has not happened so I think if she’s right about that she won’t be right about us having a heart to heart at all since that just never happened and her reading was a year ago. Yona seemed convinced I would hear from him. That eventually he would get over this karmic lesson and be the man he needed to be for me and then and only then reach out. That he would explain things offer a lot of explanations I would just listen to for a while and then when he saw his talking wasn’t working he would take action.
And Skye. Oh my gosh Skye is the only one who has made absolutely correct predictions although few and far between a lot of other stuff and not many at all. But listening back 3 of 4 calls with her over the last year and a half - each of them she has said 2 years. Actually one she said she just kept getting a 2. Then in the following calls she said - and I really don’t think she had notes but maybe - but this was a consistent prediction not her taking notes on something I said.... she said I’m really sorry but it looks like the whole thing is going to take two years. At first she said wait have you been together two years? I am not relaying the verbiage well because as I’m typing it sounds like she was fishing but I’m trying t to say the opposite. In the last call I had with her I thought well there she is saying two years again. Wth. And then I realized .... well. 2020 will be 2 years since we were together. So maybe it is that it is 2 years before he’s completed his own karmic journey.
And honestly? I have work to do still too. Because I was on a good track before him and that breakup. And I still am working on healing from it and getting myself back together. So maybe I need to be getting through my lesson that a break up is not going to be the end of me and get myself back together again. And hopefully that will allow some shift. Be it with him or someone else.
Wow. Sorry this ended up so long. Thanks for reading.
