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jen80:

--- Quote from: marybell on February 09, 2013, 10:43:20 PM ---Jen , do you mind if I ask if you are still calling psychics?

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currently I call kisha, sapphire21 and uli. I haven't spoken to uli this year. sometimes I do get the urge to go all over but the feeling comes and goes. I take it one step at a time. One day at a time because it is an addiction.

jen80:
DISCLAIMER: I chose the 'VENT' section of the forum to write my thoughts as a healing therapy for me. My thoughts may help others but it is not intended to hurt anyone. It is also not intended for me to be attacked if you disagree. I will ignore any attack or hurtful words and continue to write my thoughts unless it is against the rules of the forum then I will stop.

I have a fear of if I start another relationship and it doesn't go well if I will result to calling readers again. I know I will not repeat the ones I have used before because at the back of my mind I know they failed. But there are many others out there. There is always the next great most talked about one. Its like falling off the wagon. It is an addiction. It is an emotional addiction. I feel so helpless at times and there is always they fear of what if my ex knows. I don't have those fears as much as am 96 percent detached from him and don't care but still you don't want to seem weak. I decided my next relationship I will let them know from day one about me, that I do call psychics at times etc. If someone likes you that shouldn't matter and if they can't take it its better than living in fear of being found out. I want to be so free in all parts of my life. Fear is a terrible thing. If a married man is being blackmailed for having an affair the married man or woman should take the risk and tell their spouse themselves before the blackmailer and the blackmailer would lose their power. Fear is the worst thing ever. I am planning to talk to my mother first about what I have been going through. She knows I call readers once in a while for nothing serious but she doesn't know how far I have gone and how much I have spent. I have not bought a lot of things for myself in a long time as almost every single money I got went into readers. All this for a man that could care less and out enjoying his life. Now I get readings once in a while for jobs so I can pay off my bills and to see if someone else is coming into my life. I have been stripped of my self confidence that I depend on a reader to tell me when a new guy will come when before it would come so easily. I haven't called a reader in almost 2 weeks yeah for me, though am on sapphire 21's line, she hasnt been on in a while and I read with her once a mth. Uli I haven't read with this year. I think that helps when you choose your team and try hard not to read with anybody else. It is so tempting when I hear of great new readers that I would like to go and read with them but luckily I have held strong. Kisha and sap21 will not allow too much reading of any one topic so that helps me, uli is exepnsive, I have to go through supervisors and after that if she is not on fire that would be a waste. I do get contact from my ex but I don't answer as I don't want fall back into fantasy and because of other factors. Its hard but I have to save myself. If I don't take control and take care of myself noone else will. I hope my personal vents help others also. Hugs.

jen80:
Just read with sapphire today through appointment. Got my 'FIX' LOL. She is very good. She picked up so much. As I said somewhere on this forum where she picked up the name of someone that called me for my job interview that I went to last week well today she picked up  M and A as letters in the name of the person that did the actual interview and yes sir she was right,the person's name was maria.she was saying mary but it was maria.the lady is real,I didn't even spend much with her as she gave me almost 10  free minutes.when I get this job I will give her a big bonus.am so touched.she knows am in financial hell right now. Hoping her overall outcome comes true soon as she foresaw. Crossing my fingers and praying hard.I like it when a reader actually says correct things without too much questions or cold reading.everyone have a pleasant day. Thank you for allowing me to bombard you with my vents and thoughts.

allbitenobark:

--- Quote from: jen80 on February 10, 2013, 07:43:15 PM ---Just read with sapphire today through appointment. Got my 'FIX' LOL. She is very good. She picked up so much. As I said somewhere on this forum where she picked up the name of someone that called me for my job interview that I went to last week well today she picked up  M and A as letters in the name of the person that did the actual interview and yes sir she was right,the person's name was maria.she was saying mary but it was maria.the lady is real,I didn't even spend much with her as she gave me almost 10  free minutes.when I get this job I will give her a big bonus.am so touched.she knows am in financial hell right now. Hoping her overall outcome comes true soon as she foresaw. Crossing my fingers and praying hard.I like it when a reader actually says correct things without too much questions or cold reading.everyone have a pleasant day. Thank you for allowing me to bombard you with my vents and thoughts.

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This is a great update/review about Sapphire. She has been very good for me and consistent for me as well. It would be nice perhaps if this post could be moved to her thread so that anyone that is new to the forum and doing a search can also see this post about her. She is a kind woman and despite some not connecting with her, I do believe she is ethical. Thanks for sharing. :)

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